Personal Background
My sweet little boy Caleb Isaiah Harvey was born on October 17, 2007 at 2:10pm and sadly passed away on October 17, 2007 at 2:10pm. Words cannot express how much Caleb was loved and how very much he will be missed. Although we never got the chance to meet our sweet little boy his memory will be forever etched in our hearts. Sleep ever so sweetly in the arms of Jesus my dear son.

We are touched by Angels
Walk where Angels tread.
They will guard and guide us
Through the days ahead.
In times of sorrow,
As in the days of joy,
They bring us hope and comfort
Nothing can destroy.
In the hours of darkness,
When our dreams have flown
They bring us peace and healing,
We are not alone.
Through times of doubting
Still they understand,
We are touched by Angels,
Walking hand in hand.

We were so excited to find out
you were on your way.

You were growing so fast.

This is the last picture I have
of my sweet angel.
I lost you four weeks later.

Caleb--Hebrew origin, meaning, brave one
Isaiah--Hebrew origin, meaning, Saved by the Lord
SWEET DREAMS CALEB.
MOMMY, DADDY, AND HANNAH GRACE
LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!


You ask me how I'm feeling,
but do you really want to know?
The moment I try telling you
You say you have to go
How can I tell you,
what it's been like for me
I am haunted, I am broken
By things that you don't see
You ask me how I'm holding up
but do you really care?
The second I try to speak my heart,
You start squirming in your chair.
Because I am so lonely, you see,
no one comes around,
I'll take the words I want to say
And quietly choke them down.
Everyone avoids me now,
Because they don't know what to say
They tell me
I'll be there for you,
then turn and walk away.
Call me if you need me,
that's what everybody said,
But how can I call you and scream into the phone,
My God, my child is dead?
No one will let me say
the words I need to say
Why does a mothers grief scare everyone away?
I am tired of pretending
as my heart pounds in my chest,
I say things to make you comfortable,
but my soul finds no rest.
How can I tell you
things that are too sad to be told,
of the helplessness
of holding a child who in your arms grows cold?
Maybe you can tell me,
How should one behave,
who's had to follow their childs casket,
watched it perched above a grave?
You cannot imagine what it was like for me
that day to place a final kiss upon that box,
and have to turn and walk away.
If you really love me,
and I believe you do,
if you really want to help me,
here is what I need from you.
Sit down beside me,
reach out and take my hand,
Say "My friend, I've come to listen,
I want to understand."
Just hold my hand and listen
that's all you need to do,
And if by chance I shed a tear,
it's alright if you do to.
I swear that I'll remember
till the day I'm very old,
the friend who sat and held my hand
and let me bare my soul.

Last night while I was trying to sleep,
My son's voice I did hear
I opened my eyes and looked around
But he did not appear.
He said "Mom you've got to listen,
You've got to understand
God didn't take me from you, Mom
He only took my hand
When I called out in pain that night,
The instant that I died,
He reached down and took my hand,
And pulled me to his side.
He pulled me up and saved me
From the misery and pain
My body was hurt so badly inside,
I could never be the same.
My search is really over now,
I've found happiness within,
All the answers to my empty dreams
And all that might have been.
I love you and miss you so,
And I'll always be nearby.
My body's gone forever,
But my spirit will never die!
And so, you must go on now,
Live one day at a time.
Just understand-
God did not take me from you,
He only took my hand.
A heart of gold stopped beating,
Two shining eyes at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove
He only takes the best.
God knows you had to leave us,
But you did not go alone~
For part of us went with you,
The day he took you Home.
To some you are forgotton,
To others just the past.
But to us who loved and lost you,
Your memory will always last.












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If we could have a lifetime wish
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts
For yesterday and You.
A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we've tried....
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we've cried....
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too....
But we never wanted memories
We only wanted You.

If tears could build a stairway,
And memories were a lane,
We would walk right up to heaven
To bring you down again.
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say good-bye.
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God knows why.
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow,
What it meant to lose you,
No one will ever know.
When we are sad and lonely,
And everything goes wrong,
We seem to hear you whisper
"Cheer up and carry on."
Each time we look at your pictures,
You seem to smile and say,
"Don't cry, I'm only sleeping,
We'll meet again someday."


Your first Bible.
The hospital gave it to you
the day you were born.




I will never sing you lullabies
Or tuck you in at night
I will never kiss a boo-boo
Or soothe you from a fright.
I will never read you stories
Or hear you sing a song
I will never put your toys away
Or teach you right from wrong.
I will never hear you laugh
Or ever see you smile.
I will never tickle you
Or just hold you for awhile.
I will never teach you letters
Or help you with your math
I will never play in a pool
Or get soaked in a bath.
I will never make you breakfast
Or prepare for you a snack.
I will never ever hug you
Or ever get hugged back.
I will never braid your hair
Or help you to get dressed
I will never tie your shoe
Or tell you how I'm blessed.
I will never play a game of tag
Or hide and go seek
I will never comfort when you're sick
Or hold you when you're weak.
All these things I'll never do
And it will hurt until forever
But you ask will I forget you?
And I'll tell you I will never.

Lord.... I cannot live, yet cannot die
I'm left here alone, to always ask why?
I do not understand, and I never will
Why can't my child be with me still
The Lord replied, I'm always by your side....
Just take a breath, and hold my hand
There will only be one set of footprints in the sand
Your child is with me forever more
Smiling, laughing on Heavens shore
There is no more pain or sorrow there
Only happiness and eternal loving care
Somethings are meant to never be known
Your child was sent as an Angel on loan
Needed more in Heaven then on Earth
The price of love and all its worth
Although your gone, were never far apart
For you are forever kept in my heart..
Children who will never be you didn’t have a chance,
Not for lack of want or love but just by circumstance.
You started out from love and had just begun to grow,
And why you didn’t make it I guess I’ll never know.
Mommy and your Daddy made plans right from the start,
And although you were not born yet you lived within our hearts.
You were taken in an instant no chance to say good-bye,
And I am left here empty to ask the question why?
No Christmas or birthdays no shopping for toys,
Only a house that is silent without a child’s noise.
I stare at the darkness as tears stain my face,
And wonder where are you do you have a place?
Then I think about Heaven so far up above,
That’s where you must be surrounded by Gods love.
You were so helpless and tiny you see,
And I never realized you were not meant to be.
So if I cannot have you to nurture and to love,
I’m happy you’re in Gods care in Heaven up above.
I love you and I’ll miss the chance to watch you grow,
But someday we will be together truly this I know.
So I say to all my children the ones I cannot see,
I will always love you because you’re part of me.
You are still alive within my heart and you will always be,
Although my little angels you just couldn’t stay with me.


From the very beginning I loved you,
I know that you are heartbroken
SLEEP SWEETLY IN THE ARMS OF JESUS MY DEAR SON My First Christmas In Heaven
As I made plans to hold you and rock you:
You were tiny and helpless as you lay in my womb,
But something went wrong and soon you were gone;
My young heart was broken, my tears fell like rain,
I'd never known such heartache and pain.
I wonder who you look like, me or your dad,
Do you have my smile and his eyes?
Would you have been big and tall or tiny and small?
We had dreams for you that reached to the skies.
It was long, long ago and I still miss you so,
Thanks to Jesus, I'll see you in heaven.
I'll hold you in heaven someday,
When my trials on earth pass away;
The angels have rocked you, the Father watches over you,
I know you're waiting for me;
I never could hold you or tell you "Goodbye",
But I'll hold you in heaven someday. 

and sad that I am gone.
But I am in Heaven now, Momma,
and I've never once been left alone.
Oh I wish you could see me now.
Heaven is a beautiful place to be.
Jesus is the light that shines here.
And He walks daily with me.
Oh, the skies are never gray here.
And it never ever rains.
And, although I know you still feel it...
Up here, there is no pain.
Angels are always singing for me.
Their voices are beautiful and clear.
I am in the presence of loved ones.
And Momma, I haven't seen one tear!
I know that you are hurting for me.
And I can't make your pain disappear.
But if you could see me now, you'd know
I am happy in Heaven
and I still love you from here! 


I am having my first Christmas in Heaven
A glorious, wonderful day!
I am standing with saints of all ages,
Who found Christ, the truth and the way
I am singing with the heavenly choir
I- who so loved to sing!
And, oh what celestial music
We bring to our Savior and King
I am singing the glad song of redemption,
How Jesus to Bethlehem came,
And why they called His name Jesus,
That all may be saved through His Name!
Oh, loved one, I wish you could be here!
No Christmas on earth can compare,
With all of the rapture in glory,
I witness in Heaven so fair!
You know how I always loved Christmas,
It seemed such a wonderful day,
With all of my loved ones around me,
We were so happy in every way.
Yes, now I can see why I loved it,
And, oh what a joy it will be,
When all of my loved ones are with me,
To share all the glories I see!
So, dear ones on earth, I send greetings,
Look up! Til dawning appears,
And, oh what a Christmas awaits us,
Beyond all our partings and tears!























I Love You Caleb









SENDING YOU ALL MY LOVE
MY LITTLE ANGEL BOY!
MOMMY LOVES YOU SO MUCH!




In Loving Memory
Of
My Son
Caleb Isaiah Harvey
We Will Love And
Miss You Forever
Rest In Peace







sweet dreams my angel!







Latest Tributes
Happy Father's Day - Here I sit and stare....
out the window of our home..,
On this Fathers day...
Feeling so very alone.
Oh, how I wish....
My child was still here....
Bringing me a Fathers day gift...
Even an ugly tie would be so nice this year.
But...my child has gone on to Heaven...
And is playing on streets of gold...
Listening to Jesus tell stories...
of so many years ago.
And today I find myself thinking...
about the meaning of a gift....
For a gift is something given to you...
that makes you smile and gives you a lift.
But...many times we receive a gift....
And then lose it or misplace it some day...
But we never forget the gift...
For the memories remain tucked away.
I think I have concluded...
On this Fathers day....
That since a gift is yours once given...
It can never be taken away.
And the most precious gift...that I was given....
To me ...so many years ago....
Was the day my child entered this world....
And touched my life, heart, and soul.
So on this Fathers day....
I thank the Lord for the most precious gift of mine....
My child in Heaven...treasured times and memories....
That will remain with me...my entire lifetime.
For a Gift is a gift...
And my most precious gift....remains in my heart...
And just then...a rainbow appears out my window....
reminding me....that my gift and heaven are not so far. - from Laurie Kat's Mommy
Angel Embrace - I leave this tribute to your mommy little Caleb in beautiful memory of you. I love you both so much. Auntie Karen
There are angels who sit quietly
and whisper when we need comfort.
There are those who breathe life into us when we are breathless.
There are angels who fill us with gracious support when our souls become fragile,
and those who kiss us goodnight for a peaceful slumber.
There are angels that touch us with sacred laughter when tears become a burden.
There are those who wrap their wings around us and rock us until the ache in our heart disappears.
There are angels that can send us flying with wonder when our hope begins to fade,
and those who devote everything to give us everlasting peace in Heaven.
- from Karen Pelletier ( Kristy Pelletier's mom)
Ashley's Poem - I found this poem when going through Ashley's things. She wrote it for her English class in her Junior Year of High School.
Heaven
I think my idea of heaven...
Is calm, peaceful and serene...
Somewhere inviting and where I want to be...
So white and So pure...
Like walking after a winter snowstorm...
With the sun shining bright...
No fears...
No Worries...
Only Peace...
I often imagine what it would be like...
Every vision never a dissapointment...
Although I am happy hear on earth...
The thought of a better place...
With no worries...
No disappointments...
Only happiness in a place so soothing...
Reuniting with loved ones missed so much...
So comfortable and so safe...
In that place so desired...
The place we dreamt to be...
When our time on earth is complete.
Ashley Stuart
2006
If we only knew
Your beautiful boy is in my angel's arms in that beautiful place
- from Kris Stuart
Happy Valentines Day - This valentine is not of the ordinary kind.
It's still filled with Love and
Blessings inside. But mine has to be
sent on the Wings Of Love. You see
it's destinationis the Heavens above.
It's being sent to My son Caleb
who left earth so soon. Who's now in the Heavens
with the stars and the moon.
The message is the same as your
Valentine, I Love you, my sweet
precious child of mine.
My Love is still deeper than the ocean is blue.
It's sent with hugs and kisses from
me to you. I know you are with me
each and everyday. You listen as I
talk to you and you hear every
word I say. For that is one thing you'll
always be a part of me and me a part of you.
Happy Valentines Day Caleb, I miss
you so much. I know you know how many lives
you have touched, you'll always be mine.
I love you with all my heart, I know we
will be together again and then we'll
never part. So you see the meaning
is still the same, the method of delivery
is the only change. Mine must be sent by
a little white dove,
On The Wings Of Love.
- from Aunt Laurie
God Took My Hand - Last night while I was trying to sleep,
My son's voice I did hear
I opened my eyes and looked around
But he did not appear.
He said "Mom you've got to listen,
You've got to understand
God didn't take me from you, Mom
He only took my hand
When I called out in pain that night,
The instant that I died,
He reached down and took my hand,
And pulled me to his side.
He pulled me up and saved me
From the misery and pain
My body was hurt so badly inside,
I could never be the same.
My search is really over now,
I've found happiness within,
All the answers to my empty dreams
And all that might have been.
I love you and miss you so,
And I'll always be nearby.
My body's gone forever,
But my spirit will never die!
And so, you must go on now,
Live one day at a time.
Just understand-
God did not take me from you,
He only took my hand.
- from Aunt laurie
Latest Memories
Mommy - My dear Caleb,
People keep telling me that time will heal the pain. It's been exactly four weeks today since God decided to take you to Heaven to be with Him. I sit and think what my life would be like if God would have seen fit for you to continue life here with your family that was so excited and anxious to meet you. Your big sis Hannah Grace still asks about you daily. I know you really would have loved her very much. I pray everyday that God will watch over you until i get there. say a prayer for me--it's hard going on without you. I love you so much my baby boy.
Love,
Mommy
Mommy - My little baby boy,
It breaks my heart that i never got the chance to meet you. there is never a day that goes by that you are not in my thoughts. I don't understand why the Lord decided to take you to Heaven so soon--maybe it was so we could have an angel to watch over us. I love you so very much and i can't wait until the day that i can see you again. My darling son, you will NEVER be forgotten.
Love Forever,
Mommy















